long lied, sweetheart??

he's lied to me
on last 1 and a half years
he makes me sure that i was the only one to blame
makes me feel guilty all the time

i can't
i can't say anything now
spechless

how can i fight for something that i never know the truth
how can i pray for something wrong
how can i cry for something that wasn't mine
kinda i'm the stupid one
kinda i'm the blind one

this is not the way
this is not the true ones
this is not the punishment
i'll get the worse
harder things
bitter punishment
more than it

and you never care, sweetheart
you leave
with all your "happy" life
*you think, your feel is everlasting. it is not, dear
i'll fight with the God besides me
to find the real happyness
the everlasting happyness